Speechless

I have felt like everyone is waiting for me to say something about this experience and I come up empty every time I try to put it in words. 

I don't even know how to prioritize what's valuable information. This experience is discombobulating. Topsy-turvy. Not just a paradigm shift. Not just simple reversal: what was top is now bottom. Complete disarray and a scrambling of senses. 

This isn't a good thing nor is it a bad thing. It is simply disorienting. I have been punched in the gut and everything I once held dear, I count it now as loss. 

We walked by a woman begging on the street with three kids under 5. On our way to go to the gardens. We bought them some fruit. There are too many starfishes lying on the beach. 

Jesus forgive me!